I’ve had a few days to recover from my burn out. My brain fog has cleared and my headache almost gone.

I’ve let my brain think, wonder and take action when I’m confident in the decision. One of the hardest was to start the process of passing my cat on. She isn’t a lot of work in isolation, it’s just on top of everything else. She brings me ‘gifts’ every few days, is currently on eye drops twice a day and the vet bills add up. I’ve made easier changes like got someone to sort the garden for winter, changed how I do my recycling and sorted some jobs that were creating daily inefficiency.

I still have some bigger points under consideration – my house and job. Both are significant loads. I like my house and there is long term value in it. I like the people I work with and would love to see things through to the next milestone in a couple of years.

I rationalise that life isn’t easy to get ‘right’ – our feelings, moods and thoughts are always moving. We are in need of rebalancing multiple times a day.

I try and give space to my feelings and thoughts – respect and listen to them. Then I choose if they are valid to take forward. Sometimes I can be in a state of ‘X’ for hours, anxiety for example. I try and understand why and then work on moving forward. Sometimes that’s by deciding ‘this isn’t valid’ and other times it requires me to make a change.

Even when a feeling or thought isn’t valid, it’s not always as simple as a switch to let it go. It can take a while. For me, the important thing is I take deliberate action (sometimes doing nothing is an action).